When Did I Stop Being Fun

This week I saw a special report on when women turn into their mothers and men fully mature. Apparently by age 31 all us gals turn into our moms. Well, I'm 33 so you can only imagine I've been mom for about 2 years already. To be honest that doesn't bother me to much. What I have been bothered with since the special is I've realized I'm BORING.

I think back to a time when I loved to go to the movies, bowling, out for drinks. It wasn't that long long ago but it feels like forever. In the last few years I realized I really don't enjoy much of the "fun" things I used to enjoy. I'm much happier sitting at home on a Saturday night with my husband or having our close friends stop by. It could be I'm just feeling cheap. Maybe I just happened to like movies before they cost $13 and didn't stink. I haven't seen a good movie in a really long time anyway. I think it may have something to do with being a little burnt out too. My job is incredibly demanding. Since I work with children diagnosed with disabilities my Monday through Friday is always non spot and loud. I like the quiet departure from the noise on my weekends. Maybe my job has made me a little bitter. The last thing I want to do is listen to a screaming kid when I go out to dinner. I sometimes cringe when I walk into a restaurant and see kids running around or making tons of noise. Sorry, mommies! I'm a jerk.

I toss around the idea that I miss the days when I would spend Friday at the movies and Saturday night at the bar. I feel as if those were amazing times in my life but I don't know if I need to relive them. I'm in a different place. My partners in crime and I have all settled down. We are all married or marrying the men of our dreams. Some of them are mommies too. We enjoy watching 5 years olds practice ballet on Saturday mornings and trips to Home Depot instead of sleeping till noon. Maybe the idea of fun just changes as you age. Maybe I didn't stop being fun at all. Even if I'm still fun in a different day I do miss this girl. She was a blast, maybe slightly tipsy but I was fun and slightly crazy!