I think back to a time when I loved to go to the movies, bowling, out for drinks. It wasn't that long long ago but it feels like forever. In the last few years I realized I really don't enjoy much of the "fun" things I used to enjoy. I'm much happier sitting at home on a Saturday night with my husband or having our close friends stop by. It could be I'm just feeling cheap. Maybe I just happened to like movies before they cost $13 and didn't stink. I haven't seen a good movie in a really long time anyway. I think it may have something to do with being a little burnt out too. My job is incredibly demanding. Since I work with children diagnosed with disabilities my Monday through Friday is always non spot and loud. I like the quiet departure from the noise on my weekends. Maybe my job has made me a little bitter. The last thing I want to do is listen to a screaming kid when I go out to dinner. I sometimes cringe when I walk into a restaurant and see kids running around or making tons of noise. Sorry, mommies! I'm a jerk.
I toss around the idea that I miss the days when I would spend Friday at the movies and Saturday night at the bar. I feel as if those were amazing times in my life but I don't know if I need to relive them. I'm in a different place. My partners in crime and I have all settled down. We are all married or marrying the men of our dreams. Some of them are mommies too. We enjoy watching 5 years olds practice ballet on Saturday mornings and trips to Home Depot instead of sleeping till noon. Maybe the idea of fun just changes as you age. Maybe I didn't stop being fun at all. Even if I'm still fun in a different day I do miss this girl. She was a blast, maybe slightly tipsy but I was fun and slightly crazy!