Back To Work and Full of Tears

Oh, how I've dreaded this day, probably since finding out we were having a baby last April.  As I type this my little guy is out cold on my chest and my tears soak his tiny head. I'm using his burp cloth as a tissue. I've been crying almost non stop since Friday.  Not just tears either.  I'm talking full on, ugly cry. I've tried to take in every moment a little bit more as my maternity leave comes to an end. I know so many women have done it before me and so many will do it after me nut I'm not handling this well at all.  It's so hard being a mommy whether you work inside the home or out.  It just seems so unnatural leave your baby.

Jack is such an angel.  We haven't been separated for more than 2 hours since he was born.  I know so many women have told me to enjoy the time apart or see it as a break but I haven't needed a break. I just think its so unfair. I go off to work taking care of other people children while some one else has to watch my boy.

My job has been kind enough to start me off this week part time.  My schedule will also go down to 32 hours.  We are making adjustments with our spending habits and the cut will be difficult but we will make it work.  This extra day will leave a day open for all of Jack's medical appointments. We are happy to report that although he has his first cold he is doing well and his lungs are clear. He is also up to 11 pounds 13 ounces!

Here are some new pictures of our little man...

Send Xanax, wine and/or chocolate!